Today has not been a good day. Actually it’s been a massive kick in the teeth kind of day where we found out that our poor dog is very sick with cancer.
I needed something to take my mind off of things so I picked up some beads and started making
I think it’s kinda cute. especially the little teapots on the chain ends. The colours are those of the bi pride movement. I’m not 100% sure how the teapot fits with that, but somehow it just does.
These are a congratulations gift for a friend who is celebrating completing her phd but I have loads of these beads left so may make some more – I think I’m going to need a lot of distraction over the next few days, I just wish my stupid body would stop hurting and let me keep making for longer.
My daughter has let me have copies of her wedding photos, so I can bring you an update on how it all went.
I think the flowers turned out really well, Vicci’s choice of colours was lovely and bright and cheery
The men weren’t left out
I do think my darling daughter looked particularly lovely 🙂
My son scrubs up pretty well too – Heffalump was also part of the bridal party
It was definitely a wonderful day, filled with happy people enjoying themselves. The perfect start to a marriage.
This is my favourite picture from the day. I have a framed copy to go up on the wall. It’s just so fabulously romantic and gloriously gothic, there could be werewolves or vampires hiding behind those gravestones and the lit up window in the background is just perfect!
Last night I had the pleasure of modelling for a life art class in Huntingdon.
It’s a fabulous thing to do. It’s one of the few times where it genuinely doesn’t matter what size or shape you are, you will still be appreciated. I find it really relaxing, all I have to do is keep still for however long the pose it, it gives me time to meditate with absolutely nothing to distract me. The time just flies by.
I usually hate photos of me, my mental picture of me doesn’t match up with the short, fat, clumsy looking blob that always turns up in photos and seeing the reality is depressing. I’m absolutely dreading the photos at Vicci’s wedding, I feel like I’ll ruin any of the pictures I’m in by being so fat and ugly. I’ve been dieting ever since I knew it was happening and I know it will be a wonderful day but I’ll still feel like a hideous monster when the photos start to appear.
Somehow though, drawings are a different matter. I love seeing the wonderful range of pictures that people produce. There’s so many different ways of making art. The artists always manage to capture something I like, even when they’re showing all the lumps and bumps.
I inevitably come away feeling really good about myself and just that little bit more confident about how I look. I know I need to lose weight but even as fat as I am, I still have a body that can inspire art. (I’ve just been diagnosed as Type 2 Diabetic so I definitely do need to lose weight and improve my eating habits as it will have a positive impact on how I feel) .
Last night was especially good for me. A couple of the artists told me I was their favourite model and one of them was kind enough to let me have one of the pictures she had drawn of me curled up in a comfy chair with a book. I am going to get it framed and it will hang in my bedroom as a reminder that however bad I may feel about my body, it is still worth something. I am art.
For once it’s actually something a bit more interesting and creative than general admin. I’m working for an agronomist doing soil analysis zoning.
It looks really interesting. They use geophysical surveys and satellite images to collect data about fields and my job is to use that data to define zones within the field. They then take samples from each zone which are sent off to a lab for analysis. The agronomists and farmers then use that data to decide exactly what fertilizers are needed in each area for optimum results.
From my perspective it looks a lot like trying to convert photographs or pictures into cross stitch charts or simplifying them into bands of colour for artwork. So it should be kind of fun 🙂
This is what I hate about having fibromyalgia. The day after.
I feel so useless.
My legs feel like they have heavy weights strapped to them. They ache and moving them requires so much extra effort. There is no way to sit comfortably but the pain involved in adjusting position is overwhelming.
Laying down would be a good option for my legs, but doing that makes my neck and shoulders feel even worse. Sitting up they are just a dull throb that I can almost ignore unless I try to do something strenuous – like lifting a cup of tea or turning the page of a book.
My hands are already shaking just from this little bit of typing. I definitely won’t be able to do any crafts or handwriting today. My right hand is worst, it feels swollen, every little movement hurts as it stretches the already throbbing tissue. I suspect that’s my price for getting all the stock made over the last few days.
At least today’s headache isn’t as bad as having a migraine, it’s more at the annoying level than the crippling level. My eyes feel heavy and it’s hard to concentrate, but that could just as easily be because the pain stopped me getting a decent night’s sleep as an actual fibro symptom.
I am lucky enough to have my wonderful Gary to look after me so I won’t have to try and keep doing more than I can manage. He’ll do the cooking and bring me drinks and food. He’ll do any other fetching and carrying that’s needed. All I have to do is try and find the most comfortable position to rest in – but right now that feels like an almost unmanageable challenge.
First – I have a craft fair on Saturday. Am going to be spending the next few days frantically making stuff to sell. My aim is to end up with a couple of display boards filled with earrings plus a few necklaces and earrings. Today I also bought a couple of packs of canvas so if I get enough made tomorrow and Thursday I will try and create a few mixed media collages as well.
I’m really nervous, selling is not something I am at all good at so this will show me whether I have actually learned anything from this course I’ve been doing. Fingers crossed and all that!
In other even more exciting news, my lovely daughter Vicci announced her engagement a few days ago. She’s marrying a lovely guy who I am sure she will be very happy with so I couldn’t be more thrilled for her.
They’ve picked a date just 5 months away so it’s going to be a whirlwind of preparation. We’ve already been dress shopping and she’s bought a beautiful frock that she looks amazing in. I only cried once, which is pretty good going I thought.
That is not THE dress, just one of the many she tried on.
I’m not even thinking about what I’m wearing yet, I want to try and get some serious dieting in before we reach that point. Vicci has suggested that I wear something with plum tones which is her bridesmaids colour so it will probably be easier to find something in that colour once the autumn gets here.
I get the fun of doing the flowers and maybe making some jewellery for Vicci and her bridesmaids. I love wedding crafts so am looking forward to it She has some lovely ideas for what she wants.
Since this is supposed to be a crafts blog, I shall end by sharing the card insert I made for Vicci’s engagement card. She likes sheep and thankfully found it amusing rather than cringeworthy 🙂
I’ve just been and voted. It only took a few minutes, the polling station is within walking distance. It doesn’t seem like such a big deal really, but that just shows how fortunate we are. There are places where people face violence for exercising the same right I have just, so casually enjoyed. I live in what is considered an ultra safe area so the chances of our current MP being replaced are slim to none, but even so I can be sure that my vote will be counted and that only the votes of those who made that minimal effort to turn up and make their mark or arranged a postal vote in advance will be counted alongside mine.
I don’t like the current government and I like some of the parties standing against them even less. To be honest there isn’t a single party I am 100% in favour of, but even if my choice of government won’t win this seat at least I can vote against the ones I really dislike. It’s good to know that even if they win outright they will know that there are people like me who object, perhaps it will be enough to sway their minds on some of the policies.
I have no idea what the outcome is going to be, but I think it was worth taking part.